I wonder where has all my passion and drive gone to.... Have things to strive for yet not as committed as last time. I guess i always need someone to push me... and it didn't help that the people around me don't understand my struggles and often add salt to the injury...
Wait, this blog should be for happy thoughts! Haha, complaint blog should be the other one...
Still i wonder... isit a good idea to keep blogs? I recalled 2 diaries i had (and still keep) while i had in secondary school and uni. I remembered my struggles searching for myself, my failed relationships with 2 exes (which i think is good for me :P), my admirers (ahem...), many many frens, although i always feel alone (even with family around), and my dreams... Once in a while, i'll peek thru them but dare not sit down and read the diaries all over... coz i knew i left my drive and passion there. I recalled another blog cum diary which i have deleted... it was my struggles for the period between uni and Vis job. I remember reading thru them before ... ppl i met thru work, passing and failing exams, my self-motivations (and self destruction haha) and i shall always remember the guy (who liked me at one point) being brutally murdered... another blog created not-too-long ago was mostly full of unhappy things which i do not wish to revisit at the moment... and now this blog which i hope can remind me of the things i do, my struggles and my triumph... yet till now, i still feel something missing in my life. dare not wish too much.... like Daughtry sang 'be careful what you wish for... for you might get it back ... and much more'...
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