it's been a while....

i went to KL for crystal report training yday... got back today.... i met up with kai yday... yeah... after so long... it must have been 4-5 yrs ago when i last saw him... we met up at secret recipe... had lunch.... he held my hands.... looked into my eyes... i let him hold my hands.... somehow it felt comfortable.... and warm.... after lunch, we walked around centrepoint.... holding hands like couples do... put hands over each other's waist and shoulders.... at one point, he just turned me around and hugged me.... it felt right.... and comfortable.... as if we have been doing it for quite some time.... while still holding me close, we kissed.... in the mall.... we kissed again later.... he wanted to take leave but i wouldn't let him... he wanted to ask me to go to the emergency exit but i refused... probably bcoz i was afraid.... he didn't turn up for lunch today due to work commitment.... things are not going to be the same again.... i have never expected it coz everytime we planned to meet up, something would come up.... but yday was unexpected.... first time we met up without any interruptions.... i can't believe it myself..... dear diary, what will happen from now on? things will never be the same again between us....