why?

I am feeling angry, frustrated, irritated... y does he like to take care of ppl's children when the parents can just enjoy themselves every weekend...??? why....? call me selfish, but i do nt feel it's the right things for the parents to do... dunno why... am i fated to be with him? my life seems to go downhill from there, no matter how positive i might be... why issit that i dun have children til now? isit fated? or isit bcoz god have something else in store for me???